_____We try to make it work. We waste so many days of our lives building stories that won't ever come true. We believe. You think you are strong enough to make it work just by yourself. I know you honestly believe you can do it. For long you promise yourself the unknown. But it takes two to make it endlessly real. So one day, it happens. You open your eyes to the miserable evidence. You finally realize it's useless fighting against an undeniable truth.
_____You struggled. You gave the best of you. You gathered all your strength and you believed. But now you know it won't ever change. It's too late. It has always been too late. He's not yours anymore. He's not coming back. He's no longer in love with you. You refuse to accept it, cause it hurts too much. You feel lonely and exposed. You cry and you forget to breathe. All that matters is that you've lost your balance. You've lost what you always loved most in your life.
_____That's when we cry. That's when we blame ourselves for our decisions. That's when we wish we could sleep forever. You finally see how frail you truly are and how silly all those plans and hopes have always been. You feel pathetic. And even though you try to remember all the bad moments you lived with the person, there are only good memories. And it kills you. You can't stand contantly remembering everything you've lost. All your dreams are broken, leaving scars that won't ever fully heal.
_____You lie down. You take a deep breath. And you wait.
_____You wait until you're ready to stand up, live again and let go.